Saturday, 2 February 2013

Apabila Usia Kian Meningkat


Apabila usia kian meningkat & kedewasaan mula menular di hati, aku tidak dapat lari dari realiti hidup yang manusia mahu menyayang & disayangi. Aku mula sedar apa ertinya ungkapan sehari tak berjumpa umpama setahun lamanya. Rindu menyeksa batin tapi nikmat sesudahnya tak terucap oleh kata2. Sedar jua aku...Mengapa ada yang lari dari realiti sehingga lautan api sanggup direnangi...

Biarkan persoalan cinta tuhan...Itu lebih sukar didefinisi, biar bermain dgn cinta manusia, itu sudah cukup hebat terasa.

Dulu di kolej, forum tentang cinta seolah kurang maknanya buat aku. Tapi kini persoalan itu berubah serius. Namun aku tak fahami. Memang bila menyelami persoalan cinta terasa murni & indah segalanya. Bila masing2 saling mempercayai, jujur & tiada khianat. Seolah-olah segala macam persoalan & lingkungan masalah yang menjadi realiti hidup terketepi.

Semakin dalam menyelam, saling berperasaan antara satu dengan yang lain seolah-olah punya chemical bond yang cukup kuat hinggakan kita terasa sanggup buat apa jua demi insan yang kita cintai. Hebatnya cinta. Tak usah lari dari realiti. Itu hakikatnya.

Namun, bagaimana aku bisa mengungkap persoalan ini. Apabila kita disulami rasa cinta & tidak tenggelam dengannya, tidak buta kerananya, waras & rasional, tahu mana arah tuju cinta. Maka lebih nikmat cinta itu terasa sebenarnya. Patutlah insan yang menahan & bersabar sehingga akhir hayatnya seolah2 syahid kecil buatnya. Berat perasaan yang tertanggung bisa membuat insan gila  & bila sampai seru, masa yang sesuai & berani utk mencapai tujuan maka hasrat pun dinyatakan pada insan itu. Lantas hubungan itu dimulai (bukan diakhiri) oleh pernikahan & bermulalah kisah cinta yang tidak seharusnya bermula sebelum itu.

Bila manusia tenggelam dalam lautan cinta yang tak bertepi, karamnya itu juga selalu bermakna karamnya dia dalam lautan dosa. Kehidupan aku di UK, aku seolah2 melihat(tak tahu betul x) cintanya muda mudi hanya dihiasi seks dan mudahnya mengungkap kata cinta pada kawannya. Namun selalunya tak kekal lama. Namun bila berbekal prinsip & jalan yang benar, maka hebatnya dugaan membuat bertambah rasa cinta & ingin. Budaya ketimuran yang aku pegang aku sedar rupanya banyak memelihara aku dari terkandas di persimpangan, tak tahu memilih yang mana patut dituju...

Lebih tepat aku perlu katakan,
Islam mengajar aku memilih jalan yang patut kutuju. Walau aku tak sehebat kawan2 yang lain, berbekalkan sedikit ilmu yang aku belajar dari mereka mana batas yang aku tak harus lewati. Perasaan malu yang datang juga bisa sedikit sebanyak memelihara aku agar perbatasan itu terjaga hinggalah pada titik pernikahan. Lahirnya malu itu jua dari iman.

ah...indahnya bayangan itu. Jalan2 waktu malam atau senja di mana2 taman berpegang tangan bersama isteri. Mungkin menunggang kuda bersama dan kemudian minum petang bersama. Tatkala itu pandangan terus mata ke mata bukanlah lagi panahan syaitan buat jiwa yang meronta tapi nikmat tuhan pada insan yang bergelar hamba. Mungkin aku sedikit kebudak-budakan berimaginasi seperti itu...tapi aku percaya pada janji tuhan, agar aku usaha untuk menjaga & terus berdoa, maka akan terkabul jua. Tak didunia, akhirat masih ada kalau amal cukupla..

Bila berkahwin, syukuri seadanya pasangan yang ada dan pastikan erti hidup pada memberi tanggungjawab dan bukan meminta tanggungjawab org pd kita. Kerana disitulah lahirnya kebahagiaan.

Dan akhirnya, aku sedar dan aku tahu ungkapan ini, namun masih aku gagal memanifestasikannya dlm kehidupan ini. Namun sedikit sebanyak aku mula faham & mengerti tafsirannya...

"
memang jiwa remaja diciptakan kosong agar hatinya diisi rasa cinta pada ilahi"-dan kerana itu banyak hadith dan nas yang memuji serta memberi jaminan tingginya tempat golongan pemuda ini di hari yang pasti akan tiba.

orang kata, hidup dunia kejap so live it to the fullest. benar tapi adakah anda nak try smua, minum arak hingga boleh bwk accident, nak hisap rokok, macho n cool...tapi anda tahu juga lung cancer akhirnya...

maka biarlah ungkapan live life to the fullest itu berdasarkan prinsip & landasan @paradigm yang tepat.

buat Muslim :
Dalamilah Islam kerana disitu perspektif sebenar dan disitu keseronokan hakiki + spiritual satisfaction dapat dicapai.

p/s:musim nak exam n aku suka sangat musim ni,sebab aku lebih takut & harap pada Allah n aku jadi kuat utk bangun di waktu sunyi.jadi mari kita jadikan musim exam sebagai wadah mendekatkan diri n lahirkan rasa cinta buat Muhammad the prophet n Allah y Esa.

copy from hard disk arwah Muhamad Afham bin Jumat. Al-Fatihah.

Wednesday, 16 January 2013

Sahabat

Assalamualaikum.

lamanya rasa tak menulis.kita selalu je update cerita tapi dalam diari. sometimes people need some privacy because sometimes we dont have to share with others. unless with our family and close friends.but its ok. as long as i have a chance to write here, i will.

first of all, i would like to share to all of u about sahabat. i believe everyone of us has sahabat. normally sahabat is someone yang rapat dengan kita. rapat di sini adalah satu subjektif. but for me, i would like to be sahabat to everyone i know.

tarikh keramat 11 january. i will never and able to forget it. the same day my friend and i sit for the AGA exam, takkanku lupa padamu sahabat. pemergianmu amat memeritkan hati ini. bak kata Ali, he is waiting for us there. ya Allah, betapa banyaknya dosa hamba-Mu ini. tidak kira sesama manusia atau pada-Mu.

sahabat,
pergimu takkan kembali,
pergimu dari duniawi,
pergimu tiada galang ganti.

sahabat,
sesungguhnya aku merinduimu setulus hatiku.

AL-FATIHAH

Thursday, 29 March 2012

bila ustazah berbicara

this is the original answer script from me myself towards my friend's questions. actually she choose people who are single mingle as her interviewee. dah la kena rekod suara. hampess baru i know that my pelat rrrrrr is sooooooo annoying.

1) what is ur opinion about intimate relationship before marriage?

in my opinion, there is no intimate relationship b4 marriage. Islam has taught us to beware on this matter. for me, it is so sweet when u fall in love after married

2) how do u deal with this issue?

if possible, i would restrain myself from involve in the relationship before marriage

3) how do u respond towards those who are in relationship?

i respect them as long as they know the limits of being in relationship. i would not ask them to be separate because it is their right to love and be love

4) what is your respond when lecturer/someone talk about this issue?

i would just give them my absolute opinion. if we are in the same opinion, then it will be fine. otherwise, if we are in different opinion, i will argue about his or her point if necessary

5)do u know the islamic viewpoint on intimate relationship before marriage?

as far as i know, it is not allowed under Islam about such thing.

6) should we curb intimate relationship and how?

society should concern 100% about this issue.especially parents. they should control their children's activities as well as who are their friends

7) what intimate relationship before marriage can lead to?

for me, there is pros and cons. it is about how u control urself. if u able to control it well, then it turns out to be good. otherwise it may harm yourself

p/s: actually the question is from my friend who are in relationship with my friends also. we were from the same school. i just didnt know what to answer because i scared that my answer might hurt her. sorry u.

hebatnya ujian-MU

ya Allah..
dengan kekuasaan Mu..
setelah aku ternampak dia dan kekasihnya..
terus aku post di fb..
 
 for the long time..
aku hope he will be waiting for me tapi hampess ko..
aku geram gak la tapi i will never crying for the man that is not halal to me..

but suddenly,terkejot kot..
baru balik dinner dengan oni je..
suddenly my fon ringing.. i thought it was my mom..
sebab dah janji nak balik tapi tak balik gak..

guess what???
he called me..
i remember his voice..
tapi no. tak keluar sebab dia guna celcom..
aku just hafal no.maxis dia je..

so now aku just wanna be friends..
kalau lu taknak silakan angkat kaki dan main jauh2..
adios agigos..

Sunday, 18 March 2012

oh my bad

assalamualaikum..

today i felt very tired. i didnt start yet reading my notes for the coming midterm. this is me. i always take easy on everything. then if anything bad happen baru nak menyesal. anyway, i believe in Allah. if i am sincere in doing job, HE will bless me. Insya Allah.

i started my day by doing revision with my bff, atiqah. actually its not revision but sort of tutoring. she asked me to teach business finance at mcd. we studied till lunch hour.

then i pick up my little bro and send him back home. i just feel geram with him. i dont know why. then at home, he asked me something. he want to borrow my skuter. i felt uneasy everytime i let him using my skuter. and it is true. something bad happen. skuter rosak.

i cant control myself and marah dia. astaghfirullah. not him only, everyone has been scold by me. thats why i feel so terrible, annoying, disgusting etc. hati rasa tak tenang je sebab dah marah teruk sangat. i love him although he always make my whole family annoyed by his attitude.

anyway shaari,  ko takkan baca blog ni sebab ko tak tahu kewujudannya. tapi orang mintak maap sebab takde intention pun.

Tuesday, 13 March 2012

andai itu takdirnya

assalamualaikum..

baca title je macam tengah angau. but actually that is the title of malay novel. 
i dont remember who the writer is. its has been a long time i didnt touch MALAY novel.
rasa geli geleman je sebab asyik2 about love. dah tu love between husband and wife.
lagi la not my taste. i like the mystery, murder or whatever yang seram2.
baru adventure skit.

however, when i read andai itu takdirnya, i feel something.
maybe because heroine (aleya) has been suffered a lot because her husband. 
for me, tak payah kahwin pun takpe kalau dapat husband (aizril) camtu.
walaupun hensem tapi panas baran, kaki pukul, playboy.

tapi tu pandangan lama ok. now i realize. we never know does he is the right one or
 not till we understand or living with him. itulah cabarannya.
the good thing about si aizril is he try to improve himself. banyak kali juga failed but he never give up.
so, every things happen mesti ada hikmah. 
if we ourselves asyik cakap negative je, memang susah la hidup

i try the best to control myself from talking bad about others.
it is not good ok.
my roomates say if we talk bad about others, Allah will never take our life
till others reveal our bad things. so its make me think so many times.
camne aku nak mintak maaf with those yg aku da buat dosa.

ni la novelnya..menyentuh kalbu si pembaca

Thursday, 1 March 2012

mencari???

U ols tahu tak jawapan yang tepat apabila orang bertanya dah ada calon ke belum?


Sebaiknya anda menjawab sedang mencari daripada anda menjawab tiada jodoh.


So nampak la yg sebenarnya u ols sedang berusaha dan bukannya jual mahal.


p/s:sebenarnya nk test blog android je


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Monday, 6 February 2012

18th IIUM TAEKWANDO INVITATIONAL

assalamualaikum...

after a few days only i get chance to write again. actually for the past few days my friends and i joined a program called the 18th iium taekwando invitational. for the 1st day, some of us kumpul mattress at female sport complex and others go to the pulapol also to take mattress there.

2nd day, the program started but my group and i have no idea at all about the flow, what we should do, what is our jobscope. dah la the program is very new to us because we never joined the so-called program like this before. then at night during post mortem, program maanager tegur. dia cakap

"why  there is some committee just walking around/sight-seeing. you guys should know your jobscope. if u join the program for the cert or token or tshirt, just forget it bcoz u just got nothing(pergh...aku bengang giler time dia cakap ayat ni).i know maybe some of u never join a program but please give full cooperation. for me, today was a failure. dengan operation room yang chaos and committee yang selamba derk je,hope tomorrow u guys will change".

third day, the program going better because all subcom of technical and games already get briefing from our head. but the funny thing is that, he take quite lot of time to explain the flow to us but actually we got nothing. then when sis nadiah(i didnt know her position) came and explain to us with the action together, she took less than 15 minutes and everything settle.

during that day, aku menyampah satu je. 2 referee yang menggatal giler. nak main langgar2,cubit2. apa kau ingat aku suka. dapat jelingan maut + sound dari aku baru kau taw.

forth day, kurang sikit letih compared the day before and we got knowledge already on how to make things clear. aku yang start dari zero pun boleh settle some important things.

overall, i was pretty satisfied because i learnt something there. betul  what did PM said, experience is MUCH MORE important compared to cert or free tshirt.

Friday, 27 January 2012

i am back

assalamualaikum
tick..tock..tick..tock..


google image
after a really long time break, i got an idea how to be active again in my writing here.*dah bersawang blog ni aku tinggalkan*. yeah la at least i need to write a post in a week.abis tu what kind of idea yang ada. 


anyway, tadi google image pasal comeback,then appear this statement,i think it is interesting- BAD WOMENS ARE LIKE BOOMERANGS;THEY COME BACK,NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU THROW THEM!


and my answer is ABSOLUTELY WRONG


google image

then i saw image below and the baby really cute.

google image








Saturday, 3 December 2011

arrrggggghhhhh...tension....

korang pernah tak rasa sakit hati?
bila korang dah tolong orang,
pastu orang tu tak reti nak tolong korang.
aku tak paham la.
rasa nak je gigit diorang.

Ya Allah, ikhlaskanlah hatiku ketika menolong diorang.
at least aku dapat jugak sikit pahala.
arrrggghhh.x paham.....
pegi blah la korang.

first time aku luahkan geram dlm post..
sebab aku takde geng nak cerita.
aku tak percaya kat sesapa pun.
tensioooooooonnnnnnn......
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